One Day I decided to Quit…

One year…
365 days…
52 weeks…
1 passion…

It was last October 1st when I had to make a very difficult decision. It involves a lot of aspects in my life. I was caught in the middle of a cross road. I have to decide which path to take: my passion or a career.

I only had 24 hours in my hand. I heard about the “bad” news last 29th of September, there I was on my own feet. I knew there will be consequences in my decisions but I have to be firm. I had to take a little consideration of everything. Honestly, it broke me into pieces. I can’t even sleep at night worrying about the future. Which path will I take? Which passion will I pursue? Which name will have to live?

Then I pause.
Then I think
Then I dream

I closed my eyes. I heard my heart was pounding really, really hard. I’m not nervous nor I’m not excited. I AM SCARED.

The clock was ticking. I don’t know what to do. I only had 24 hours to decipher what I really want subconsciously. I AM A TIME BOMB.

Then I broke the silence. One day I decided to quit.

I decided to quit not because life is full of shit, no, I decided to quit because I know I deserve better.
I decided to quit because I know there are a lot of opportunities out there
I decided to quit because I know it will be for the best.

As the old man’s saying “you can’t have everything!” that’s why I decided to let go of that another great opportunity because this time I’ll have the BEST OPPORTUNITY in the whole world that money can’t buy…. LEARNING







Gist:
I was caught to choose between a high paying job with great benefits and a low paying job but with a great learning experience.

if you were in my position, what will you do?

xoxo

The Meaning Behind the Name

Have you ever wonder what's the meaning of your name?
Well, I do believe that we are the reflection of our own name. That's why some people get mad especially when their names are misspelled. Because it’s not them.

I made a research on the meanings of my name. I guess, I am living up on my own name. Hahahah!!! (Ayan means “Bright”). Well… what can I say? Ű

Originally, I was named after the late famous Princess of Wales. My mom used to call me Ayan (the Filipino spelling of my original name).

So here are the meanings of my name. Enjoy!

Please let me know if you agree on this.

1. AYAN: Somali female name meaning "bright."

2. 'Ayan' also means Shepherd

3. The path through which the sun travels in the daytime is called 'Ayan'

4. 'Ayan' is also a form of African drumming.

5. 'Ayan' in Turkish, means "obviously" or "clearly"

6. In Somalia 'Ayan' means "the lucky one". However, in Somali, 'Ayan' is the female form of the name, and 'Ayanle' is the male form.

7. Narayan - the Sanskrit word, is explained as Nara + Ayan = Narayan. ie.,Nara meaning human being and Ayan meaning the mirror. In essence it is the reflection of self - the soul.

8. Sirr & Rooh form “Rooh-e-Insani (Human soul) or Ayan. This part of the soul is inscribed with commands characterizing the life. It is also termed as Ayan. When a human being gets acquainted with it, he can witness the record & scheme of “all that exists”, written on loh-e-mahfooz.

9. In Tamil: 'Ayan' is the name of Brahma, the Creator.

10. 'Ayan' [Urdu/Persian.] with the last 'n' not pronounced fully... but half i.e. nasal tone sound..)... means something that is open and clear /something like : "something vividly clear on the face of it" or prima-facie.




And some meanings of the name Ayan:
1. Hindu/Tamil: Brahma, the God of Creation
2. Sanskrit: Soaked in the Divine (as in Satyanarayan)3. Biblical: Motion, To Arrive (related to Noah);
Iian, which is pronounced like Ayan, is the Scottish variation of John
4. Hebrew: Nothingness, Peace
5. Persian: Notable6. Islam/Arabic: God’s Gift7. Several African Languages: Center Part of the Soul.








Sources: http://www.sarbadhikari.com/ayan/ayanmng.htm
http://www.mybaby-name.com/baby-name-full-detail/ayan/51/1