AYAN's audition piece for Trip na Trip

A week after the Trip

Four months ago, sobrang natuwa talaga ako when my Kila told me to audition sa Trip na Trip because they're looking for a new co-host. She encouraged me to try it out because she believed na kaya kong gawin yun, at ang hinahanap nila ay: makulit, spontaneous,madaling pakisamahan, at may character. So for me, i have to checked it out for myself..

Darn ang hirap ng requirements ng Bayan Productions: Video audition + resume, for me, this is all in general.. parang free for all ito.

so I decided to try it out. And thank God! sa lahat, soobrang walang wala ako.. ahaha..

1. wala akong video camera
2. wala akong budget
3. wala akong crew

so paano na ako??? meron lang ako.

1. guts
2. talents
3. big heart

so then, in a miraculous way, nakagawa ako ng malupet na video audition, with the help of my loving friends and family.. I made it from scratch!

Feb 25, Lee from Trip na Trip called me. He told me that I made it to Top50! I can't believe it, I was on the cab with my close friend going to visit General Lim in Camp Crame. I was on cloud nine after hearing that good news. Nung umaga nun, kagagaling ko lang kay St. Jude sa Malacanang. It was so great that he answered my prayers in an instant.

March 3 --- TOP50 audition in Astoria Plaza, sooobrang natuwa ako sa number ko.. Lucky 33. For me, it was a sign. So without a doubt, in faith, pumasok ako sa TOP20.

During the audition, I felt bad because nagkaroon ng sort of groupings which for me, it was so high school... :p I belong to the minority group, My one day boyfriend na si Pepz , my buddy si Tikoy , my friendship na si Carlo and my kalambingan na si Matt .. sa likod ng room, nag-group kami, pina-inom ko sila ng Royal para lumabas ang mga kulet nila... LOL ahaha!

at the end of the audition, sobrang thankful si Pepz dahil sa baba pa lang ng room eh praktisado na kami dahil sobrang basagan tlga ang ginawa namin.

I felt sad kasi sa TOP20, hindi ko kasama si Tikoy nung pumili na ng TOP10. I felt sad kasi wala na akong kakampi sa bagong grupo.

Anyway, When Ms. Kat announced the Top 10, I was euphoric, she called my name Top1. Man, that's heaven!!!! effortlessly, confidently, I felt it in my veins that I'm going to made it in the finals.

I felt a spark of hope when The Trippers announced that they will choose 1 girl and 1 boy for the next tripper. So sabihin mo nang confident ako, i can totally say, may laban ako.

My friends and family prayed for me... they believed in me 120 percent! Because they believed in me, I know I can do it! I'm confident because I have a Big God.

So the journey continues...

Naghanap ako ng pwede kong maging buddy.. dun ko nahanap si Matt aka BOOGS . He is my counterpart, sa kakulitan, sa kabibuhan, sa kadaldalan, sa pagiging kalog, sa pagiging maingay, lahat na.. parang lalaking version ko siya... so natuwa ako, every night, I prayed na sana Ako at si Matt ang manalo kung One boy at one girl ang pipiliin at papalarin.. kasi pwede kaming pantapat kay Uma at Kian. Oh well..

1 week before the final audition, One of the aspiring tripper named EJ sent me a message.. He sought my help on how will he improve his stiffness and how will he overcome his shyness. So over coffee, in Greenbelt, Coffeebean and Tea Leaf, 12MN, we had a chat. I coached him on how will he package himself on the day of the competition. Dapat nga kasama si Matt nito eh, pero dahil hindi siya pwede, parang "date" daw ang nangyari.

Thou, it's still part of the competition, hindi ako naging maramot sa aking knowledge and ideas. Totally, I I coached him on how to package himself on the day of the competition. I shared everything it to him. Hindi ako naging maramot because confident ako na matutulungan ko siya. anyway, One boy and One girl naman ang mananalo sa competition eh, (as they say)

March 28-29 --- the day of competition

in fairness, I arrived at the office, 3am. Our call time is 4am. So bawal ma-late. second dumating si Erick , and nagsidatingan na silang lahat... I tried na maging ka-close silang lahat.. kasi nga di ba, I belong to the minority group, in short, hindi ako nagkaruon ng chance na maka-bonding silang lahat..

In that 2-day trip sobrang saya, hindi ako nahirapan na maging ka-bonding sila, madali naman kasi akong pakisamahan eh.. marunong naman akong mag-adjust. I don't know, maybe because we share the same passion.

I am so thankful to Ms Kat, Uma, Kian and to Bayan Production staff -- Kuya Cesar, Lee, Ryan, Dave, to mama Ron, Mama Jiggs, Richard.. to all the staffs... sobrang astig kayo

Ms. Kat thanks sa magandang opportunity... thanks sa masayang experience, you are so wonderful,.. Suuper Hugg!

Uma you are the most honest person I've met, you're crazy Man... Those tight hugs you gave me during elimination, it really boost my confidence. It reminded me to stay humble as you are.. sobrand thank you talaga.. One thing pa pala, next time, i'll teach you to do split na hindi masakit.. Suppper Huug!

Kian sobrang astig mo pre... I just love your whole being. Hands down

In that 2 day trip, it was a very nice experience, we did water sports, we went to Subic Safari, we did crazy stuffs.. for me, it was all worth a try. (next note na lang to.. ahaha..)

The verdict came...

My palms were sweaty. I was really looking for signs. I opened my heart and soul to the world, because for me, it's my responsibility... First sign... Kian's starry shirt... ahaha! No offense meant but dude, the design of your shirt is the design of my undies that day! LOL... coincidence??? maybe? Or am I sharing too much? I don't think so.

second sign, white butterfly and 2 birds flying above me.. My God is affirming me that I should trust in HIM... I am trusting Him.

My heart leaped when they told us na 3 ang pipiliin nila.. Sobrang nagkaroon ako ng hope na all is equal sa game, anyway, pinanghahawakan naman namin is one boy and one girl..

When Uma, announced the first tripper, I felt, tatawagin niya ang name ko... lahat ng descriptions niya, swak sa character ko.. all of a sudden, I realized, meron pala akong male version... si Boogs! I was happy when his name was called. Answered prayer from my God.

After the second name was called, I was silent...
After the third name was called, I wanted to burst...

ASAN ANG ONE BOY AT ONE GIRL???

That point, I was not in the position to ask question. I have no right to complain, I am just an aspiring person who wanted to pursue the same passion and dreams as like the others. But after I breathe, I realized that I need to be thankful because the vacation and the experience is for free.. I am so grateful to meet beautiful people na hindi ko makikilala sa daan. Sobrang thankful ako.

I approached Matt , hugged him so tight. I am so happy that he won! ^^, *secret*

I approached my student, si EJ, hugged him so tight. I am so happy because I proved to myself that I am a good teacher. I am a good leader. Nailabas ko ang tunay na galing ni EJ. I am so proud of him as my student.

I approached Kevin. I hugged him too... Sobrang happy ako for him.

Lesson to this experience, after one week of reflection, I read the Bible... My God, wanted to discipline me... and my God has reasons why I almost Win the competition... He has reasons and I dare not to contest, but I dared to ask Him...

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This is my batian portion, galore galore sa mga Trippers!

to Afi --- tey, dapat tlga tinawag kita nung maaga pa, para ikaw ang salutatorian.. ehehe.. miss you mare..

to Yza --- thanks for the laugh trips, next time nga turuan mo ko magmake-up, kasi mas mukha ka pang babae sa akin teh. LOL Power Make up ka talaga.

to Ria -- girl! One of a kind... lasing na pero you can still remember everything.. At soobrang keen observer ka rin ha.. Kardashian pla ha... LOL! Bitin ako sa bonding natin, seryoso

to Erick --- friendship, supppper Huggg! dahil ikaw ang salutatorian ko, thank you.. I really appreciate everything... I hope, we can both share our talents..

to Karl --- ahem! wala akong masabi... ahaha.. kasi naman huling naalala ko eh.. yung sinabi mo nung humingi ka ng mints.. ahaha! Joke lang Soobrang bait mong kuya..

to Dex --- awww.. Goodluck sa iyong Political career.. sobrang salamat sa masarap na pasalubong.. ipagpaumanhin mo ang hindi ko pagbibigay ng SPF50, kasi po, hindi po ako sponsor ng Nivea.. (hindi po ako madamot) LOL

to Kevin -- thanks sa chat... yung Fita biscuit ko, I hope it made you feel better after the hangover.. Good luck to you.

to EJ --- isa kang mabuting estudyante, habaan lang ang pasensya... alam mo na ang gagawin mo kid.. Next time ha, wag kang gagawa ng bagay na hindi mo kayang panindigan.

to Matt --- ahem! wala akong masabi, dahil tinupad ni God prayers ko... Thank you.. thank you sa mga huugs.. . seryoso, wala akong masabi... *shy*

to my new friendship, LEE (Uma's friend) --- Patron Tequila! Shot na tayo! OMG, nakahanap na ko ng katapat kong hindi nalalasing sa hard! Cheers.. ang astig nun, mas magaling kang sumayaw sa akin.. ahaha...

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Thank you sa lahat ng mga tumulong sa akin para sa adhikain na ito... hindi ko na kayo babanggitin lahat pero salamat tlga sa supporta at sa mga prayers ninyo..Nay mayette, Kila, Andrea, Insan, Men, Tuesday group, Team GFI, HS Friends, College Friends, UE- YFC...

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Trip na Trip

TRIP na TRIP

AYAN belongs to the TRIP na TRIP family.

Giving and Cheating

Tithing is an act of giving 10% of what you are earning to the church as sacrifice.As per the meaning of Encarta Dictionary -- it is an individual’s financial support for a church: one tenth of somebody’s income or produce paid voluntarily or as a tax for the support of a church or its clergy.

The first time I have learned about this act, I have no idea how to do it. All I know is thatI have two hundred pesos in my wallet, I divide it into 50-50, so I donated 100 pesos to the church.I wasn't expecting in return. I told God that this is my first time to do tithes. This is the first time I am going to give a part of what I have. Well, in my amazement! God is truly God. On that same day, I went out with my colleagues and visited a common acquaintance, who is a Mayor of certain City in Province.

At the end of the day, the mayor gave us 1,000 pesos each! I was shocked and remembered that I donated 100 pesos in church.God is truly God, He multiplied my 100 pesos by 10! Could you imagine that?!

From then on, I decided to give 10 percent of what I have.

Well, I was faithful to my commitment with God about giving, but I had another proposal to Him.Since I decided to resigned from a very stressful work, I decided to be a part-timer, I am earning 7,000 pesos for four hours. Ten percent of 7,000 pesos is 700 pesos.

In the first week, I wasfaithfully giving what is due for the church. But on the second week, something happened that struck me the most.I divided 700 pesos into 4 because there's four weeks of the month.

Each week, I am only bringing 175 pesos to donate itto the church. But what happened was, I have forgotten sometimes to drop my shares at the altar or collector's box.

On the second week of my commitment, I got sick. I have to pay 500 pesos for the medical check-up. Since I was sick, I was also absent at work. My daily wage is 350 pesos. As days are passing by, I felt something was too heavy to carry in my heart. Few days after, my brother got sick and I have to pay 200 pesos for his medical check up. Again I was absent at work.

It was then I realized that I robbed God unintentionally! I should've dropped the whole envelope worth 10% of what I have inside the church.500 pesos for my medical when I got sick plus 200 pesos for my brother's medical check -up equals... Yes! 700 pesos! And because of the mishappening, I was absent for two days, I was paid 350 pesos per day... Yes! 700 pesos!
I was so struck that immediately I apologize to Him, if I offended Him unintentionally, I didn't mean that.

Since I learned my lessons, I asked God for forgiveness, I know He literally cannot speak,what I did was I open a Bible, with eyes closed, I randomly pinpointed on the Bible verse. When I opened my eyes, the phrases are "Well done, good servant!" It was from Luke. The Parable of Ten Gold Coins.

It struck me again... "To whom much is given, much is expected".


So this is what I promise to myself... I will be faithful to my commitment of giving tithes and giving what is due to GOD.If you are blessed, you have to share it with others!

Journey to Ayan's Life

I need comments please!

Here are some of the pictures of the most unbeatable team of Imbestigador (more to come, promise)

Nico, me and James

Ayan on the go.

Mike Enriquez

I never thought that writing for the famous Mike Enriquez would be my job for more than a year. It was quite an experience! You have to create a story for his famous radio program, Imbestigador sa DZBB, by the way, the program airs from Monday to Friday 9am, 11am and 5pm. As a researcher, you have to look for stories that will fit the theme of the program. You have to interview the people who seek help, who seek justice for the unfair treatment of the society. As a writer, you have to exhaust the best angle of the story of your subject. As a producer, you have to accumulate all the elements in order to produce the best quality program everyday.

This is what I do for the past year. It was tiring, yet it was so much fun. I love my job. I love what I am doing, that's why no Doubt, my mentor, Mr. Den entrusted me the most pain-in-the-as* workload in the whole universe. Ahaha! But, I did not regret any of it. It was worth all the experience!!

EVERYONE

FRIENDS...

I apologize for not writing to you for almost two weeks. Certain things happened to my life that brought me into new realizations. Well, number one. I lost my phone (it has a purpose why it did lost). Number two, I went to Baguio, it's like a retreat, soul-searching experienced. Hehe.. So there. I owe you so many stories. I hope you'll stay with me till the end of this week. I promise, I will post my pictures and kwentos as soon as I have enough time.

Maktub.
Hakuna Matata


Ayan

Red and White

There is Positivity in every Negativity - Ayan

DAY 01 of 2010

I wake up in the wrong side of the bed. I planned to wake up early (as in early). I set the alarm clock at 5:30. My goal is to jog around Makati before the sun rises, but lucky me, I woke up at 8AM!!! I don't know if it's my fault or my phone didn't alarm on time. LOL (palusot ka pa ayan... style mo).
Seriously speaking, I told myself to start the year right. My first goal is to lose weight. AHEM! (For the nth time, I've been telling this to myself, pero infairness pumapayat naman talaga ako. hehehe! ASK OSCAR the great, ASA =p)
Anyway, I woke up frustrated so I sat down for couple of minutes to gain my momentum but the minutes turned into hours, still, nothing is happening. I was shocked when it was already noon. Heck! I was all set, all in the mood to do what is right but nothing happened. I wasted 4 hours of my precious time just sitting on the edge of my bed and watching TV. By this time I was so carried away watching Showtime (tuwang-tuwa talaga ako, Promise, bentang-bentang talaga sa akin yung show)

It was 1pm when I realized that I don't have a 2x2 white backgound pic for my ID. By this time, I decided to clean the house. I decided to move. I decided to act. As a bonus point, I did exercise to lose weight =)

3pm. I hurriedly went to Dimensions (sa tabi to ng eskwelahan sa Burgos sa Pasay kung saan sikat na sikat na nagpapakodak ang mga bagets na estudyante). I told the cashier that I needed 2 sets of ID pic. 4pcs. 2x2 and 4pcs 1x1. Rush! I need to get the pics and I need to reach MRT by 4pm.

Upstairs, I told the photographer that I needed WHITE background for my pic. *Click* Click* After a few minutes, I waited downstairs. I was so happy when he gave me the pictures at around 3:35pm. My smile is okay. I looked nice in the picture only to find out that it wasn't a White background!!! It's Red!!! (Amp! kung pwede lang talagang magalit, waaah! Hindi ko alam kung bangag si kuya or bingi lang talaga ako or siya.. ewan!)

Photog: Hindi mo naman sinabi sa akin kanina ma'am eh.
Ayan: ----
Photog: Tara kukunan ka ulit namin.

So there, he shot my picture again. I waited for another 35 minutes. On top of that I'm late for my class. When he approached me, I was relieved that this time,my picture is in White background but in the picture, I look like a mad lady! Shooooot!!! Waaahh.. Bugug!


The brighter side of it was I was able to submit my picture to my teacher. :p

Seriously speaking, today is a test of patience. haha!!


Spread love.
Conquer.
Enjoy!

Life Changing Experience

I always wanted to be the best person that I can be. No matter what it takes, I'll do my very best to achieve my goals. - Ayan


I remember when I was in sixth grade, my teacher asked us to accomplish an activity. The title of the activity was "When I grow up". I wrote on my paper --- When I grow up I wanted to be a famous business woman someday. Earning lots and lots of money. I will be able to graduate as a Magna Cumlaude in college. I wanted to take Business Management "
With full conviction I believed in my dreams. But I was shocked when my teacher told me that i was so ambitious. To her, I was a little too advanced in thinking ahead of time. I told my teacher that there's nothing wrong being ambitious. She got mad at me and told me that if I didn't change my paper, she will not let me share in front of the class. Well, I sat down, contemplated what she told me. After a few minutes, I approached my teacher again. I told her that it's okay if I'm not going to recite but I'm going to keep my paper as a reminder that this is my dream.This is what I wanted to achieve in Life.


The good news is... I've never become a Magna cumlaude in Business Management course.. Ahaha! But I am a business woman now. (that I have a mind set like business woman) Ahaha! seriously. What I learned from that experienced is becoming Ambitious is not negative attitude. It's a drive that keeps you going to achieve your Goals in Life. Kudos!

So for an opening for 2010, I want to share with you a beautiful book that I read that affirmed me in my life. Hehe.. I am a visionary. So this book helped me to convert my dreams into a reality.. The title of the book is For Richer and For Poorer by Chinkee Tan

Tell you an example.

September 2008 - I was in Mcdonald's in Ortigas. I was an applicant for an Exchange student in UAP, (sad to say it didn't push through), I was waiting for Drew, while waiting for him, I was doodling. I doodle that by October 08- January 2010, I'll be able to join ABS-CBN or GMA 7, either of the two network companies will do. I was shocked when DZBB called me and told me I'm going to start there as a Writer. I always wanted to be a writer. I was so amazed that after couple of weeks I saw that notebook and I can't believed that careless doodling will end up being me career. I became an Executive Producer in one of the radio programs in DZBB hosted by a well-known anchor after seven months.

So tell me, is it bad to become ambitious?

2010 for ME

2010.

New year, New me, new endeavors to take. It's been a while since the last time I wrote here. I need to catch up with you. Well, how was my 2009?If you're going to ask me, that year was a BLAST! *BOOM*
Ups and downs, all the drama in the world, but that year sums up to Blessings, blessings and more blessings. =)

So, are you ready to take a ride with me on my rollercoaster experience? Hehe.. Cheers!

Let's welcome 2010 with a blast!