Thursday, March 27, 2008

Nang Makipag-usap si Ayan sa Sarili

dear me,

Waaaaaahhhh.. What am i gonna do? sobrang hirap ng ganitong sitwasyon palagi, lagi na lang akong nadedejavu. Punyeta naman kasi eh, sino ba naman kasi ng-imbento niyan? ehehe... most of the time ayaw ko pa yung mga sitwasyon. haaayy ateh! Anyway, decided na ako na isulat ang aking ayan's diary. babala, sa mga nakakilala sa akin, DON'T YOU DARE NA ILANTAD ANG PANGALAN NG TAONG INVOLVE DUN SA STORY KO... EHEHEH! dahil hinding hindi niyo mahuhulaan! ahahahah...

Ay naku! si ayan ay may makulay na love life... ika nga ni r1, rollercoaster ride ang aking love life, sabi din ni kilabers, sobrang exciting ng aking love life, pero at the end of the day, sa hinaba haba ng altar, sino ba ang andun? eheheh!!! Sila lang yun.. wla pa akong plano para jan. ehehe... sa ngayon, biniyayaan ako ng isang napakabait na hubby.. itago natin siya sa pangalang Poging Daga. wahahahah! peace men! come on koya.

pero yung isusulat ko kasi eh hindi tungkol kay poging daga eh... tungkol sa history ko. naks! come on. Masaya yan promise pag nabasa niyo na, pero need ko muna siya ipa-copy right kasi maghahanap ako ng publisher ko eh. ehehe! ambisyoso!

sige sige.. sa uulitin na lang ulet ha.

tambay lang,
ako

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Mga pinapangarap kong maisulat.... at matapos!

* Twisted
* The Gemini
* Batang Palaboy


Waaaahhh! pangarap na lang ba ang pagiging writer ko? i hope not. eheheh..

Trust your Instincts

Today is a very frustrating day for me. Honestly, it's a mixed emotions. waaaaah! i don't know how to explain it.


Sequence 1:

Last night I was thinking of writing my ultimate diary turning it to a fantastic love story. ehehe.. asa ayan! Grabe, pag nabasa mo yung diary na yun, sasabihin mo dun sa lalaki na... ANG TANGA MO! eheheh.. anyways, so moving on, i was about to sleep then, suddenly my ultimate buddy sent me SMS saying na drop by daw ako saglit kasi birthday ng tropa. So I got up and then asked them na sila na lang ang pumunta sa bahay. Ang weird kasi instinct ko na yun eh, feeling ko magkikita kaming mga mgtrotropa, so it happened.

Kakamiss yung kwentuhan at gaguhan ng mga mongoloid na Magdamo group. ahahah!!

Ang Boss at ang Boo-sabus
Ang Swapo
Ang Madating
Ang Bading... etc.

Instinct: Naisip ko na magkikita kaming tropa, at nagkita nga kami.


Sequence 2:

Today, since medyo puyat nga ako, kasi i slept at 11:30pm kagabi eh, feeling ko magiging hyper ako kasi epekto ng puyat. So, ayun, naging hyper nga ako, kung mga kinatatamaran kong gawin kanina eh halos natapos ko naman. weird lang tlga kasi na-de javu ako. ewan ko, sobrang laging nangyayari yan sken, yung panaginip ko eh halos turned into reality tlga siya, as in for real. Labo ba? ehehhe.. senxa na.

So pagdating sa office knina, gawd! the nerve... again, instinct.
itong napakabuti kong officemate eh, wala lang... mahirap ng magsalita. to make the story short...
sabi ko sa sarili ko na never, never trust that person again, kasi number one, that person may betray me in the coming months since that person has a history on turning back on a particular friend.

Instinct: NEVER, NEVER trust ANybody.


Sequence 3:

Couple of weeks ago, I had an interview. At dahil sobrang napaka friendly ng mga tao dun, so equip with all the knowledge and confidence i have, I go on with the interview. Everything is not align according to what it should be,so kiber! i don't care, basta i take my chances, i took that risk. Hoping that at the end of the day, masasabi ko na "i did great!" ... But no!!!!
Pag pasok ko ng interview room: Bogug!

ISANG BAKLA at ISANG INSEKYORA!!
(perfect combination isn't it?!)

Eh, honestly, allergic ako sa mga bakla pagdating sa career competition. Thanks to Momon, ang aking ultimate gay friend, siya lang ang nagtanggal ng aking fear for gays. Anyways, sa insekyora naman, come on! wala na akong magagawa jan.

Having the interview, I know that I did great but on the back of my mind, I am trying to divert my attention kasi I had a bad instinct for that interview.

Instinct: I'll fail this interview, not because I am not capable of doing the job, not even if you base it on credentials, I'll fail because of those two monsters. An insecure gay and an insecure Girl! RARRRR! I hate it... bluntly speaking...


TRUST YOUR INSTINCTS!